I often have discussions of a philosophical or theological nature. Easter was coming so I was discussing the crucifixion and the topic of the Garden of Gethsamane came up, and how poignant a moment that was in the story in the bible. I received this message at that time:
The reason he was reluctant about the crucifixion was because he loved connecting and helping on a one on one level. The exchange of love that happened was an impact he felt was significant and evident. He also loved to see how it spread through others. None of it was done with ego but that is how it was interpreted by men with great egos or great feeling of unworthiness. Part of the process of love is receiving love. While giving love is important being able to receive love completes its process. This is not ego, this is what completes the natural cycle of love and allows it to grow and spread.